While I won't call it an epiphany, I would like to think I have found a spark to get my butt off the couch and back doing what I need to be doing. So, here's an early blog post, one that is really personal and raw. I used a prompt and I might have gone too deep with it, but it made me feel better. Hopefully others can relate too.
If you didn’t have to sleep, what would you do with the extra time?
I would like to be able to say I would use it to be productive. However, being honest with yourself is not really an easy thing. If I really had this option, while I would get around to working on my writing (which I love don’t get me wrong) I would spend more time watching Tv or listening to music; watching YouTube.
The sad truth is that this is what I have let my life become. There are great things out there, but I have let it become a vortex and suck me in. Getting out, it seems like a never-ending dark path to which I may never escape.
Let’s take today, for example, today is my writing day. My husband helped me to sort out my goals for the year and come up with a realistic schedule to tackle these goals. It is doable, but I have spent all morning, with the free time I have had (which there was time) watching TV and listening to music. When I should have been doing my writing.
I even told myself, do it when the babies are down for their nap, but I still kept on with the TV. Then, when I finally did sit down to “work”, no motivation. I was about to call it quits, but then I remembered something. In the midst of my tech time, I do browse on Pinterest. I have a Prompts tab. Since today is a writing day and I am being not motivated to work on my own work, I decided to do this. Visit my prompt tab and find something to write about. I may not be working on my own writing, but sometimes (as when I have writers block, which this was not) using journal prompts can be a way to help get the writer back on track.
For me, it is helping to refocus, right now, and to help me analyze myself. It’s all good to acknowledge your faults, but it is an entirely different ballpark to begin to carve that new path; or, to even begin to shed light on a path you didn’t even realized had turned so dark.
Now, I apologize for the “all over the place” metaphors, they might not make good sense to you. However, they do make good sense to me. I am letting tech take me over again and I need to step back. If I am going to have screen time, what I really want, is screen time doing what I have loved to do since I was in 4th grade, write.
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