As I mentioned in my previous post, this will be short snippets from earlier entries by Damarcus ranging from when he was about 8 up until he was 17. Enjoy this look into the mind of a Seer.
**********************************************************************************************
I do not understand Father.
I had a bad dream. Maybe I should not have told him about it. I was scared.
The dream made me sleep during the day. It was the same…I think. Father was scary when he smiled at me after I told him. He said we were going to start special lessons. Just the two of us.
I do not want to hang out with Father. He scares me.
I want my brothers but Father told me not to tell them. I do not want to defy Father. Something bad might happen. Father told me that. Still, I need to find my brothers.
********************************************************************************************
Dante is mad at me. it’s Darts fault. Dart told Dante that I was tattling to Father and that’s why he got beat!
It was NOT my fault.
Dart says it is because I’m with Father a lot. Dumb Dart. Like I want to be with Father. Father makes me continue his… lessons. Damon and Dedric believed me. I just don’t understand why Dart hates me. I love him. he’s my brother. Why does he hate me?
All my brothers made Dart apologize to me. only after they’d found out I’d been hurt. I didn’t tell them it was by Fathers hand. They guessed it though. Damon said I should not write in my journals anymore. That Father might find them and it would be bad. I’ll hide them. Besides, as long as I have my brothers, I’ll be alright.
*************************************************************************************************
Being a seer sucks!
Father has to be doing something for my brothers to turn on me like this. This isolation is torture!
That was probably Fathers goal. I barely get to leave my room! When I manage to sneak out, well, it’s getting harder to find my brothers let alone get them to listen to me. if it wasn’t for Dedric and Damon, I’d probably be eternally shunned!
Damn Father!
I know the obvious answer seems to be to just tell my brothers everything, but its not that simple. I’ve tried that anyway.
Every time I’ve tried to tell them all the horrendous things Father has been doing, something bad happens to Dedric. I can’t let this continue. My brothers shouldn’t have to pay for my insolence.
For now, the only thing I can do it hope they figure it out. I believe in them. I just hope they believe in me too.
Comments